It's 3 AM and I literately cannot sleep. This is perhaps the most stressful subject I have typed in deviantART, and I don't expect people to agree with me, but.. here I go.
The internet is a place where one can freely speak whatever they want. But how free should it be? You can easily type up horrible things about a person and it probably won't affect you. But you know what? This is wrong. Very wrong.
Why do I say this you may ask? Well...
I took part of cyberbullying. And I know, there will be lots of people looking down at me for this, but I will bravely stand here and say the truth.
Now, I didn't necessarily troll or drew something that's downright terrible, but I did gossip. I gossiped around someone's back, and picked on them for being different. My friends and I thought that by picking on one person, it would be funny or "cool".
But do you know how wrong this truly is? This is VERY wrong. It does NOT make you cool or funny. This is a subject that's something serious and cruel and should not be taken halfheartedly.
Everyone is a human. We all have feelings, even though we refuse to admit it deep inside. And when we make fun of a person, they feel emotionally hurt.
First of all, we didn't even know the full story of the person we were picking on. How do you know if they actually have real life problems that may perhaps lead to suicide?
Second, how can we automatically assume that the person that's being picked on is actually mean themselves? Maybe they act mean because they can't help themselves, perhaps because of family or relationship problems.
Third, what do we gain after bullying? We gain absolutely nothing. Instead, we get more agony from people who are actually hurt by the impulsive, rude messages that is sent to the victim.
And how do you think the victim feels? That's right, you have no idea how the victim feels. So what's the point of adding this drama that would result to nothing? This is what I question myself when I cyberbullied with my friends.
I regretted everything I've done and I wish I would have never done it. It's sick to think that one is actually laughing at a person who is emotionally in pain. And this is why, I'm telling you not to follow my footsteps. Don't make the internet more cruel than it should be.
Think before you send. Just think: Is it worth it?
Because truthfully, it isn't worth it at all. If you have friends, then you should stay happy with them. If you're upset with somebody, then keep it to yourself. There is no need to gossip and do many horrible things to them for no reason.
In addition, some of you asked if I trolled a person by using a troll account. My answer is no, I didn't. However, I still take part of the blame. I should have stopped my friends when I had the chance, but I didn't. Instead, I just watched and did nothing besides mockery.
And this is not right, nor will it ever be.
And finally, I am very VERY sorry. To the person who I cyberbullied, I am also very very sorry. I will do anything to prevent this from happening again. I am also sorry I had to block you temporarily, because just like any human would feel like, I am afraid to see any more of this. I can't believe this is what you've been through... The pain, the despair you've been through...
All because of cyberbullying, and for the people like myself who didn't think before sending.
I should have respected your feelings, but instead I was a bully and made the drama worse. And this, this makes me very ashamed of myself. I am extremely flawed in many ways, I know. I don't expect you to forgive me, but I want to tell you that I'm sorry for everything.
You didn't deserve having such negative remarks on your page. We all deserve to be respected towards one and other, not bickering.
I promise by my soul that I will never EVER do cyberbullying again. I will tell my friends to stop the bullying as well.
Again, I am deeply sorry for this mishap, and it will never happen again. I promise.